SHAME

What of this is mine

little cage with yellow energy 

light crumble, too cooked

dancing like static, collapsed 

spine is it mine

deep dive research slouch 

into  aquarium night 

after hours seething to solve

ailments of everything

panic like being blindfolded

care rises like bile

can’t alchemize

what am I if not 

immediately useful?

all the etiquette du jour

of asks and offers

waiting to wake up

confirmed by the grain 

of the silt